Monday, May 12, 2014

Making up for lost time...

The phrase "making up for lost time" never meant much to me. Then Jonathan. We lost experiencing 6 months of his life with him. I've realized you cannot make up for lost time. Nothing will ever get us those 6 months back. When I stop to think about all that happens in the first 6 months of a child's life I could easily get overwhelmed with sadness- and sometime I do- but most of the time God is gracious to help me take my thoughts captive with the reality that He has made beauty from an ugly situation- which He is in the business of doing all the time.

On Mother's Day I experienced great joy though! I have 3 sweet boys. I have the privilege of being mommy to Matthew, Andrew, and Jonathan. Jonathan never experienced a Mother's Day without a mother. That is an amazing blessing. Not many children who were once orphans could say the same thing. Mother's Day was extra sweet this year for me though because it marked the day that Jonathan had been in our family longer than he hadn't!! I have been looking forward to this day since November 18th! We were visiting friends from out of town and Jonathan was sleeping in a pack and play in our room and he actually started making sounds right at midnight which woke me up and it was so sweet to be able to enter into that day awake and be able to pray with gratitude for all that God has blessed us with.

I also spent lots of time leading up to, and on Mother's Day (like many other days actually) thinking about the woman that gave birth to Jonathan. I am thankful that she brought his sweet precious life into this world and wish that I could meet her. I am so grateful for God's protection over our little boy to get him into our family.

My boy is so joyful, sweet, energetic, fearless, trusting, determined, and handsome. I'm so thankful that the same number of days we didn't have with Jonathan, we have now had with him! This is such a sweet milestone- and extra special that it fell on Mother's Day.

 Blurry- but this was the night I met Jonathan! If it looks from my smile like I might explode soon- that's exactly how I felt!! 
 Our first day caring for Jonathan. He just wanted to snuggle on his daddy the whole time.
Mother's Day with my loves.